January's New Dish

So two days ago my hubby was having a craving for french fries, big ones with peel. I pointed towards town and said "there is a Bill Millers right down the road!". He did not find that very amusing, even though I was laughing.

Since I promised I would try at least one new dish a month, you guessed it... I made french fries! Your probably thinking..."well that's not new" but for me it is. The last time I tried to fry potatoes (umm, probably 18 years ago) it turned to mush. I admit I can't fry. I actually do try to avoid all recipes that involve frying.

As soon as I decided I would give it a try, I called my bf for backup (the best fryer I know). First we did a trail run of 2 fries. Yup, my temp was too high. After some slight but edible trail runs, I successfully managed to make decent fries! AND the hubs loved and raved over them!

Only bad part is...

NOW HE WANTS FRIED CHICKEN!!!!

I've created a monster!

Wonder if he will notice the KFC bucket in the trash!


 

Morons Hurt too

When I met my hubby I was thrilled to know he had kids but then disappointed to learn that he wasn't in their lives. I had always secretly hoped that one day this would change. Slowly this did change with the oldest, found the son and then the youngest found hubby. Things were starting to look like somewhat of a family. Not so distant after all. I guess with my experience of an absent mother, then a dreaded step mom, I learned to keep to myself and have found it very difficult to extend that closeness that some want. I do have a huge tender spot for the grandkids but most of the time feel like I am a fake, imposter, unwanted extra family member. Honestly since I haven't birthed or raised any children, I am at a loss as to how to be or not to be. I know some parents, step parents and in laws that are all up in their grown kids business. I have always disliked that and well frankly wouldn't know how to be like that. With grown step kids, I honestly don't know them all that well. I guess I don't know how to get people to open up to me or vise versa for that matter. I want to but don't know how to be the "Pushy" one. I'm not the type to reach out and impose my presence onto a person and of course neither is my hubby. Hubby being an absentee father with all of his kids, doesn't know how to be any different than what he is. A laid back recluse or hermit if you will. He is the type that if he has something he needs to talk with you about then yes he will painstakenly use the blasted phone. He is not a sit on the phone chatting the day away kinda person. If "they" (anyone, not just the kids) want to talk to me then they would call. Heck he doesn't even call his own mother (who he loves dearly)! Unfortunately, this is the total opposite than want one wants. What they really want is their father and for him to be better than what he is. Sadly, he doesn't know how to be more than what he is and for some that is just not enough. I know that feeling all to well. My expectations for my birth mother were crushed and I hate to know that I am party to those feelings for one of his kids. BUT I got a hard lesson on how it feels to be on the side of not living up to expectations. Let's just say it hurts just as bad, if not worse. I "DO" understand the other side of it and totally agree we are morons on how to impose ourselves. Sorry I can't continue...

New Year and Resolutions

Hi, it's me! The girl who was supposed to have done the December challenge and fizzled out on ya... sorry.
 
The first day of the new year is almost over, in some places already. I have had a busy day getting some orders finished up and some started. Although I am soo ready to go to bed, I promised myself I would write at least a little something on this blog that I have truly neglected.

New Years resolutions...

I have 2.

#1... crochet and finish at least one item a week. Sometimes this will be easy to stick with but there are some weeks that I just can't seem to get anything done. So, some work is needed to accomplish this one.

 #2... I promised the hubs that I was going to "TRY" to do at least one new recipe a month. The challenge is 1) remember to do it! 2) find inexpensive and stretchable meals. 3) BAKE! LOL!(for those that know me, will know why that is funny)A lot of work is needed to accomplish this one!

I hope you all had a good 2012 and have an even better 2013!