Friday, January 31, 2014

Our little Secret...

So what has the New Year brought to us soo far....STRESS!

Not super bad stress like something bad happened but the good kind of stress where something wonderful will result from our moment of stress.

For those who follow me on Facebook might have noticed that I have been a little quiet lately. There is good reason for that. I have soo much to say but there are certain persons I don't want knowing whats going on just yet. Soo please if you leave a comment please leave it here on the blog and not through Facebook or private message me on Facebook. I just couldn't stand keeping such a huge secret from my closest friends (Sue, Peg, Grace, Angelia, Stacy...and soo many more) any longer. 
We have been blessed with the opportunity to buy some land, not much but just enough to give us elbow room and a place to call ours forever. No more worrying about land owners dying and their children selling the property we sit on. Wonderful news right?!  Why should there be any stress?

OMG the hunt is mind boggling! Considering the budget is on the small side (but who is complaining, at least there is a budget at all), the listings are horrendous! At least 99% of them need a lot of work (which there is no extra money to do repairs) or sit on such a tiny piece of property the hubs would have a panic attack everyday and my dogs would drive me insane barking at every little noise! 

I suffered through the hunt, gave up on most days but managed to find some that met all requirements or at least most of them. It is not easy and the hunt does continue just in case things don't go as planned.

As of right now we are waiting to hear if we can move on to the next step for this one particular piece of property, apparently there are a lot of steps. This alone is driving my stress level almost to its max. My diet is blown to hell and the munchies have taken over. My creativity is being pushed aside cause apparently my brain can't function with all these numbers and percentages floating in my head. I always have been a "one thing at a time" kinda girl. Sad thing is, this process can take months!! What in the world am I going to do with myself for months?

Well for now I am focusing on going through things and determining whether or not this item or that item is worth moving with us. Which means I have a crap load of "NO's" sitting around waiting for me to have a yard sale. My house is a mess, which brings on more stress, I hate the house being out of control.

But I have to remind myself that in the long run it will be soo worth it or at least it better be!!! I am giddy with excitement at the idea that we will never have to worry again, the place will be OURS but there is that other side that is in panic mode. Surely someone understands what I am feeling.



SueBee said... [Reply to comment]

Hi there long time since I have been on your blog...I thought you had given it up!!! Thank you for sharing with us again, as you know I love hearing and chatting to you via the airwaves>

I am sooo happy for you and the hubs on getting yourself your own will not be sorry and as you say 'its yours' CONGRATS and happy living and planning everything for yourself and not for you landlord!!

The stress is always there when a huge decision like this comes along...we had the same thing and leaving a big 5 bedroom to a tiny 2 bedroom was very challenging. We were fortunate that because we owned the previous property we were able to purchase outright without finance loans. Plus at our age we would never qualify for loans.....we are happy here (its about 100kms from where we used to live) A lovely seaside village with such lovely neighbours and people around. My garden is the perfect size for my animals plus all the areas for veggies, paths, cars to park etc...Hubby has added another room on so I have my crafts/sewing room plus in there I have the kiddies beds for when they come over and our its a big room. The second bedroom is for visitors or family staying over. I am over the moon happy here especially after he added a lovely verandah on. Anyway the stress levels have subsided somewhat as we ease our way into really settling in our little home. I am exactly like you in that I like things in their place and I have to have control....if the house looks out of control, my anxiety levels order has to be my first priority.

As far as your other issue you you find your fingers and toes going numb when you have been sitting for a long time? If so I have the same problem....I need to get up often and take breaks. I also am not on any vitamins but due to my mental condition, I am on chronic medication......I hate them but cannot function without them, and they have increased my weight....lately due to the rheumatoid arthritis, I am now having to take cortisone and one of the side effects is 'increased' appetite!!!!...I have picked up so much weight that it is depressing we never seen to win
Especially as I have never had a weight problem....these middle age years are the pits....hate to see what is in store in the next 20 yrs.....yikes!! Take care, keep posting and enjoy your life and home.....lotsa hugs Sue from SA xxx

SueBee said... [Reply to comment]

Help....what happened to my comment I posted to you??? :(