Monday, February 7, 2011

Sad, Sad Week

This last week has to be the hardest week I have ever went through. My sister in law went to the hospital monday and by the next day she was gone. Not to mention all the other deaths that happened last month and folks having surgery. I feel soo drained and unresponsive to any thing good and funny. This is one of those time when you have been punched in the gut and there is nothing you can do about it, but to eat the pain of it all and try to get back up.

I have always thought it to be best to go quick and have no suffering, instead of having a long drawn out illness. I have come to realise that that is all and good for the person who is dying or has died. BUT for the folks left behind the truth is quiet the opposite. To have someone hanging on deaths door gives the family time to adjust to the fact that the person is going to die, but to have someone ripped from life so suddenly, leaves one doubting that the event ever took place and yet you know it has cause your heart is the heaviest it has ever been.

I have been trying to compose a short bio of my sister in law, how she came into our lives and what she brought to it. I was sure I could whip it out in no time, but no I am having a heck of a time getting my head into it. My emotions keep getting in the way. *Sigh*

It's weird how funerals get a person to think of their own mortality and what sort of things they want to happen at the event of their death. I have been thinking on this alot this last week.

Okay sorry, but this is getting too depresssing and I wont subject to this dreariness any longer.
I'll try again next week.
Sigature,Heather

17 comments:

Ocean Girl said... [Reply to comment]

I thought of you Heather, that I had not seen you blogging. I am sorry for your loss. Death is shocking and the heaviness will linger for a while. My thoughts are with you and your family.

Angelia Sims Hardy said... [Reply to comment]

Heather, I am so sorry for your loss. I can't imagine what you are going through. Shocking and sad emotions, plus all the ones in between. Thinking of you!

SuziCate said... [Reply to comment]

I am sorry for your loss, Heather. Death is difficult at any rate, but when it is sudden like that it leaves everyone reeling and questioning.

Tinkerschnitzel said... [Reply to comment]

Hugs, sweetie. Give yourself some time to mourn, and don't force it. Holler at me on FB if you need to talk.

Carol said... [Reply to comment]

It is tough, but it will pass. Take the time you need, weep, scream, curl up in a ball, just get it out. And when it's out, you can go on.

kendrasue said... [Reply to comment]

Sorry for your loss. Prayers are going out to you.

Sprite's Keeper said... [Reply to comment]

Sorry for your loss, Heather. From what you've written, she sounds like a wonderful person. Sometimes, that's all that needs to be said.
Prayers and hugs for you.

Grace said... [Reply to comment]

My sincere condolences...

Jimmy said... [Reply to comment]

You and your family are in our prayers Heather, time will pass and it will be easier to accept, I hate that you are going through this now.

Mrsbear said... [Reply to comment]

I'm so sorry for your loss, Heather. I'm sure you will do her memory justice with your words. My thoughts are with you and your family.

rockygrace said... [Reply to comment]

Please accept my condolences. I'm sorry for you.

Jen said... [Reply to comment]

I'm so sorry for your loss. It's never easy.

Rose said... [Reply to comment]

sorry for your family loss. no matter what, a loss hurts and pains us when we lose someone we know and care. prayers and special thoughts for all of you. rose

Gerardine Baugh said... [Reply to comment]

Heather,
I am so sorry! Your words are full of pain, sadness and an empty feeling. I have felt that way, and can still feel those days. They weigh heavy on your heart. I still can’t write about my sister and it has been 20years. I hope you have someone to talk to, someone’s hand to hold, someone to hug. I haven’t been around a lot these past two months, but I am here. If you need to talk send me an email gerardinebaugh@gmail.com in subject line: From Heather-
Crying does help. I sent out a prayer for you and your family.
Love Gerardine

Spot said... [Reply to comment]

Oh Heather, I'm so sorry for your loss and that of the rest of your family. There's really no comfort in anything anyone says at times like these. Just know that you have some really good internet friends and we're all here for you.

Take care.
♥Spot

purplume said... [Reply to comment]

Sorry to hear this. Bless you all.

~The South Dakota Cowgirl~ said... [Reply to comment]

I know I'm late in getting here, but I wanted to express my condolences nonetheless. xo!